This year has been a challenge. There have been many highs and many, many lows.
I watched my youngest go from a baby to a walking, running little one and my oldest become a young lady. We went through some of the worst financial situations I’ve ever experienced (still are) but there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
The worst part of 2019 was allowing myself slip back into my old ways.
The best part of 2019 was realizing I’d let myself slip back into my old ways…
I may not be exactly where I want to be in life, but one thing is clear, I know what I want and I know how to get it. What took me YEARS of hard work mentally and physically will be much easier this time around. Yes I let myself slip, but this time it was so much easier to recognize it. I didn’t have to dive deep down and admit my issues, go through my faults, and fix it. This time I was able to recognize the issues so much quicker, and take control back.
My weight has been stagnant at 264 since Halloween. I have not lost, but I have not gained. I was able to get through the busiest time of the year without packing on a single pound. I even did it with very little gym time. I was active, just in other ways. I’m going to count this as a victory for 2019. Yes I allowed myself to slip, but I recognized it so much quicker, and was able to rein it in even quicker.
I still have moments of weakness, ridiculous cravings, and I slip from time to time, but I don’t let it destroy all my efforts. One moment of weakness doesn’t wash away many moments of strength.
I’m going to take all the great moments of 2019 and let those be the spotlight, and all the bad moments will be fuel to do better in 2020. None of that “New Year, New Me” crap. Yuck. I’m still me. I can’t go to Target and buy a New Me. I’m still me, just a wiser, stronger me.
Thank You 2019 for giving me another year with the ones I love, and ‘thanks’ for the challenge. Here’s to 2020 and all the New You’s out there…